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Happy New Year New You!

Ah, the beginning of a new year!  So full of hope and renewal.  Big plans to change lives, change the world!  OK, hands up if you’ve decided this is the year you’ll exercise regularly or start running or begin a new diet or go to church weekly or “be a better you” in some other way.

Yeah, they all start off that way, don’t they?  We start off with all this enthusiasm and we’re so gung-ho.  But by March all the beginning enthusiasm has worn off and we’re back in the same old routines, probably disappointed in ourselves for failing when we’d set ourselves up for failure in the first place.

So what can we do instead?  How can we make ourselves and our world better in 2017?  Certainly not by trying to do it all up front.  No, it needs to be a more gradual process to succeed.  Baby steps!  And we must be forgiving of ourselves when we don’t make a goal or a new routine doesn’t stick after the first month.

It’s true that we often don’t push ourselves hard enough and don’t reach our potential in any given area because of it.  It’s also true that sometimes we push ourselves too hard and sabotage our efforts that way.  I know I’m guilty of both!

Face it, you aren’t going to go to the gym every day.  Probably not even 3 days a week every week for the whole year.  But that doesn’t mean you can’t exercise several times a week.  Go for a walk.  Do a 20-30 minutes workout video or follow along with an exercise sheet easily printed from various websites.  I’ve seen some designed to be done at a desk!  You also won’t follow a strict diet of severely restricting what and how much you can eat, either.  But you can find a healthy eating program to help you make balanced choices and eat more whole foods instead of sugary treats.

How will I be a “new me” this year, I guess is a question.  Well, certainly not by making any Earth shattering resolutions and failing by mid-February.  No, that won’t do at all.  That’s just “me” not a “new me” 😛   I’d rather continue studying to learn more about networking and computer repair until I finally get a job and then continue on from there.  I’ll also continue meditating and reading daily (or almost daily, anyway) to grow both spiritually and as a person.  I’ll try to do a better job to help those in need and to recognize when someone doesn’t need or want or can’t accept anything I have to offer.  I could also do a better job of accepting help when I’m the one in need.

So how about it?  Do you have big plans for the new year?  How do you intend to make it work long-term?  Can you be forgiving of yourself if you stumble along the way?  Remember, dear.  You’re only human.  You will make mistakes.  You will run low on steam to keep up a big project.  You will probably even find yourself forgetting because it’s not part of your pre-set routine.  Love yourself because of this, not in spite of it.  It’s okay, really.  You are going to be great and do great things!  Even if it’s not what you planned 🙂

Sabotage? I think not!

Riley is doing amazing!  Seriously.  Incredible.  The difference in her in just the last few months is unbelievable.  Her speech.  Her social skills.  Pretty much everything.  I was terrified at taking on multiplication again after the summer since it was so hard in 3rd grade but it feels as though she assimilated that information over the break.  She’s doing great!

I’m doing wonderful, too!  I’ve lost nearly 15 pounds in the last month or so.  I’m really close to a milestone!  I’m wearing pants I haven’t been able to squeeze into for months and they’re comfy!

Then there was the weekend…

Oh dear.  Run, run, run.  Busy, busy, busy.  Tyler had his play performance on Friday night then two showing on Saturday.  Riley and I went to a symphony concert Saturday evening.  (It was a fundraiser for the ranch she where she rides and they host the Special Olympics horse show.)  I ended up having dinner at 4pm at Steak N Shake.  Single burger with fries and a diet coke.  Then everyone… both kids AND my parents… ordered ice cream!  Ugh!  It’s soooooo yummy!  And I sat there sipping my diet coke.

So of course I had to have a snack at the concert (concession profits also went to the ranch).  Thankfully they provided some veggie chips (surprisingly good), fruit and bottled water.

Then Tyler’s play let out right after our concert (at adjoining venues, conveniently) so he just HAD to go to McD’s to hang out with the other actors some more.  So here I am at McD’s with an excited 16 year old, exhausted (and grumpy) 9 year old, my very tired daddy, and me.  Again, all these calories are just flying around me!  Did you know McD’s is now putting calorie counts next to every item on the menu?  I love it!  Fruit ‘n’ Yogurt Parfait!

I’m so proud of myself!  I just went over 1200 calories for the day!

Today wasn’t much better.  I didn’t even get lunch today!  Busy, busy, busy.  Run, run, run.  What’s a gal to do?  I’m sure I’ll make up for it tomorrow!

But with everything against me and temptation abounding and stress through the roof, I stuck with my desire to be healthier and fit into more flattering clothing.  Sabotage will just have to try harder next weekend!  (I don’t mean that as a challenge… really!)

The little things

It’s all about the little things.  The random hug from Tyler.  A note in Riley’s daily agenda saying she’s having a good week at school.  A friendly message from someone I wasn’t sure if I’d hear from again.  Purr therapy from my cat.  Realizing I chose the PERFECT shade of blue to paint my dresser.  Knowing someone who can find great homes for all these orphaned clothes we’ll never wear again.  My Libman Freedom Mop.  Slice-o-matic… never will I dice a cucumber with a knife again!  A fresh peach dipped into Greek yogurt with honey.  Feta.  The scale saying 1.5 lbs lighter than the day before.  Seeing Riley excited about the book fair at school next week.  Baking soda and vinegar.  Borax.  Being able to put my right hand flat on the floor when I try to do a push-up.  OK, that’s not a little thing… it’s HUGE!  Wearing those jeans that have been hanging in the bathroom for a month waiting for me to be able to squeeze into them 🙂  Walking the block with my neighbor for a little morning “walk n talk”.  Saying goodbye to the kids in the morning.  Welcoming them home again in the afternoon.  Perhaps tomorrow I’ll bake them some cookies.  Beautiful days like today!  White, puffy clouds.  Opening the windows.  Just BEING!  I guess the little things really are the big things, aren’t they?

The best laid plans…

So last night I was all hyped about the potential I had to get so much done today.  Yeah, didn’t happen.

Maybe because I went into overdrive yesterday.  Maybe because I didn’t take my Adderal this morning.  Maybe it’s stress.  I don’t know.  But I pretty much shut down this morning.  After Riley got on the bus I came home and passed out.  Then when I finally woke up, I was hungry all day!  To the point where I was just snacking all day.  Bananas, apples, no idea how many grapes, Special K baked chips with sea salt (I love those…).  Not exactly any diet busters in the mix but just a lot of it!

I tried to work on a braided fabric necklace I saw on Pinterest but just wasn’t feeling it.  I did get quite a bit of it so I can finish it tomorrow, I’m sure.  I definitely want to work on some greeting cards this week, too.  It’s been a while since I’ve done any paper crafting.

And since today was Tuesday, Riley had Special Olympics equestrian training!  There’s nothing she loves more than riding horses 🙂  Last year they put her in an independent category even though she’d never ridden independently.  This year, she’s ready for it!  I’m so excited for her!  There is one thing she loves almost as much as horses.  Getting trophies.  Horse trophies are just so awesome!  And of course there is always at least one cat at the arena.  Today there were two!  Eek!  Excitement overload!  Even at home with her cat that she’s had for 2-3 years some days it’s every five minutes I hear, “Mom, did you know there’s a cat in the house?”  Or “Do not move a muscle.  It’s sitting right on you!”  She is truly adorable!  Until she does it 50 times in an hour, then it can be kind of annoying.

But I’m going to bed a few minutes earlier tonight.  I want to set myself up for another day like Monday instead of like today!  I’m really not annoyed or frustrated or kicking myself about today.  It’s not all or nothing for me.  So long as my scale keeps going down instead of up, last week’s skinny jeans are next week’s fat jeans, and I have relatively healthy food for myself and my kids, I feel good about it.  I need more projects completed if I’m going to do the craft fair coming up in two months but I have a ton of excellent ideas and it’s all happening slowly but surely!  I’m in a good place in life right now and I’m just going to enjoy each day and it’s challenges and rewards one at a time 🙂

WOW! Finally!

I seriously was starting to wonder if this summer was going to end!  But, finally! School starts in the morning!  My son is starting his senior year at high school and my girl is in fourth grade.

We didn’t do a whole lot this summer.  No big vacation or anything exciting.  But we did okay, I think.  Riley and I went to the pool a few times.  She loves swimming!  She’s not what one might call a “good” swimmer but she has fun and what else matters?  We went for some walks on days when it wasn’t blazing hot.  And every Thursday we spent the day at the therapy clinic for OT, PT, speech, and therapy.

Tyler spent most of the summer doing teenage stuff and landed a part in a local production of Oliver!  He’s so excited!  The play opens this coming weekend.  It’s been a great experience for him.  He really had to break out of his comfort zone to go to a new theater to audition and it paid off for him!

As for me, I’ve spent a lot of time working on crafts and some other projects.  A while back I took some things to a local store because the owner sells local crafts on a commission basis.  Nothing has sold yet but it’s a new store still.  It’s not particularly profitable yet.  She’s planning a street fair for November and my goal is to have enough doodads and whatnots put together to have my own booth!

I did make another change, too, about two weeks ago.  I started writing down everything I eat and how many calories it has.  Wow!  When I pay attention to what I’m eating, I really don’t want it as much as I thought I did!  In fact, just by calorie couting, I’ve gone down 10 pounds in 2 weeks!  Next I’m going to add some exercise to see what happens!  Wootwoot!  Heck, if I could lose 60 more pounds, not only would I be ecstatic, I’d also be slimmer than at anytime in my post-pubescent life and might consider a bikini for the first time ever 😉

Right now, though, I have to wake up at 5:30AM and I couldn’t be happier about it!  Good night!